Apple TV+ has launched Selena Gomez’s bare-it-all documentary Selena Gomez: My Mind and Me on November 4th. The documentary begins with Selena’s highly publicised 2016 Revival Tour which was cancelled only after 55 shows due to Gomez’s deteriorating health conditions.
Ever since then, media and fans from around the world tried their best to dig deep into Selena’s personal life and know the reality of the matter. Gomez, who has been in the spotlight since she was 7 kept a low profile and took a long break from her work which pushed her fans into a state of frenzy.
Selena has since then spoken to great lengths about her struggle with Lupus and her mental health. As her next step, the star has decided to take her fans behind the scenes of the Revival Tour to give them an idea of what it is like being Selena Gomez. As her documentary begins, Selena promises her fans of revealing only her darkest secrets to them.
Let’s take a sneak peek into 5 Honest Revelations by Selena Gomez My Mind and Me
Not wanting to live during the Revival Tour
During her 2016 Revival Tour, Selena gave 55 back-to-back powerful performances for her fans. She owned the stage with her energy and confidence but, now that we get behind the scenes, Selena’s former assistant recalls that the singer was at one point done with her life and wanted to die. Quoting the singer, Theresa says, “At one point, she’s like, ‘I don’t want to be alive right now. I don’t want to live.” She had nothing in her eyes, the assistant tells and it was scary.
Selena’s best friend Raquell reveals that the star was constantly hearing loud voices inside her head that just kept getting louder and louder. All of this led Selena to cancel her tour and enter a psychiatric facility in Tennessee. She was dealing with depression, anxiety and panic attacks at that moment.
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Troubled ties with her parents
Selena’s mother, Mandy Teefey made a cameo in her documentary. During her short appearance, Mandy broke down speaking to the camera, revealing that she and Selena’s stepdad only came to know about her daughter’s mental condition through TMZ, who contacted her for an opinion on the matter.
At one point in the documentary, Selena can also be seen crying and regretting her behaviour with her parents. She was admittedly rude and mistreated her mother and her stepdad. Selena recalls how her parents would tell her about her behaviour in the morning and she wouldn’t remember anything.
Body Insecurities during the Revival Tour
Selena was the most relatable at one particular point in the film. During the fittings for her 2016 Revival Tour, she could be seen complaining about her body, calling it “really young” and asking her designer to give her assets through her costumes.
Sel’s vulnerability was loud when she compared her body with that of a 12-year-old boy and expressed her desire to look more like a woman. She cried that her outfits looked “sh***y”. “It just sucks the life out of me, and I don’t want to perform. The pressure is just overwhelming.” complained a broken Selena after watching herself on the big screen.
The Justin Affair
How can it be Selena Gomez’s documentary if it does not include Justin Bieber? While the Rare Beauty only referred to the pop star once in the film, paparazzi can be seen questioning her about her relationship with the singer and Justin’s engagement to Hailey. If there’s one word we have repeatedly heard in the documentary, it’s Justin.
Even without ever making a physical appearance on the screen, Justin Bieber has been present throughout the film. Selena put an end on their toxic relationship with her chart-topping single “Lose You to Love Me“. Towards the end of the film, Gomez can be seen smiling ear to ear and calling their breakup the “Best thing that ever happened”.
We guess it’s finally a wrap on “The Same Old Love“.
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Craving Childhood Connections
Selena has shared with her fans what her childhood in the humble Texan neighbourhood looked like. It was overwhelming to see her revisit her old neighbours and her childhood friend. She took a quick trip to Texas with her cousin and could be seen reconnecting with her past and feeling alive again.
At one point, Gomez mentioned how she does not want to be famous and love like “Normal People”. Her Texas trip proved that Selena meant every word when she gave that statement. She has time and again called her family and friends the best and she can be seen at her best when she’s with them.
Life after Lupus
After silently undergoing her treatment, Gomez shared with the world her battle with Lupus through her social media posts. Ever since Selena has been vocal about the disease and has used her platform to create awareness about Lupus. But fans always wondered how the star herself tackled the auto-immune disease.
In her documentary, Gomez has taken her fans through the silent period and given us a glimpse of her life after the disease. Selena took IV shots and constantly checked her Blood Pressure, all this while giving public appearances and flashing smiles at the cameras.
The Bipolar Disorder Trauma
Selena Gomez has shared her trauma of dealing with Bipolar Disorder, when she didn’t want to go to a mental hospital but chose to do so for her family and fans, and most of all, for herself. She revealed how she would completely forget episodes of her uncontrolled behaviour and would mistreat her parents.
The star said that she is ‘grateful’ that her parents never gave up on her even though “they should have” according to Selena.
The Progressive Present
Selena Gomez: My Mind and Me does not end on a picture-perfect note. It is clear to us that she still has puzzle pieces that need to be fixed. But, putting an end to her high-profile relationship drama, battling with Lupus, her episodic Bipolar disorder and the mended relationship with her parents are all signs that the singer is progressing on a personal level.
Being vulnerable and raw in front of a world that sits to judge her moves shows that Selena is ready for the challenge and is the best that she’s ever been. Selena has taken up philanthropic works and wants to be useful to others and add meaning to other people’s lives.
Let us know which of these revelations surprised you the most, in the comment section down below.
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